Day 2 Friday, 4/8:

I decided to make Day 2 here align with my new food day count. I got bad results on my “lipid panel” at the doctor and I get way more exercise than the average person of my age but I need to radically change my food and use mindfulness, no refined sugar most of the time. Usually the first few days I manage it but don’t cook a lot, but today I made a smoothie with banana, frozen raspberries, spinach, Greek yogurt, flaxseed. Then I made a huge rescission as a strict vegetarian to eat fish again. Since 1996 when I started vegetarian only, on and off I’ve gone to “pescatarian” and switched back. So I’ll try fish for a while.

I cooked a big piece of salmon and I admit, it was very good. I can see how eating fish could really make hiving up sugar different and more interesting, plus it’s a new way to do it so I won’t hit a wall again.

I’ve been wanting to post some recent poems. Here is a poem from a poetry therapy workshop in November:

Prompt about pressure to get good grades  one of the workshop students talked about:

I often want

To drop out.

I give myself C’s and D’s

And

Everyone else

The A’s:

I want to drop

Into the well

And disappear 

And

Fall into the place,

Get the key 

To the secret garden,

Like Alice

And

Go to Wonderland,

Where everything 

Is backwards upside down

And familiar,

Where the only grade

Is a gradation or a grave,

Where Report Cards

Talk and Argue with

Each other 

About reports,

Fighting over cards.

Then they flap open

And turn into birds-

Ravens flapping their wings

Making V’s in the sky

On a crayon drawing

On the fridge.