I have been writing morning pages wherever. This weekend was pretty bad so I wrote a bunch of stuff and then tore it up. That’s a great one for when you’re feeling high energy depressed then completely unmotivated and exhausted by the idea of taking a subway uptown. I didn’t do much. I hardly left the house except to go grocery shopping.
I also had that thing that a few people might empathize with where you feel terrible and at the same time you don’t want to feel better. It sounds ridiculous but it happens. It’s hard to describe. It’s hard for people around you to watch you obviously in a mood. I confess to being the moodiest person in the house.
Today again it was freezing at work. I bought one crappy space heater yesterday that sucked so I returned it and went to Bed Bath and Beyond and got a Vornado that wasn’t very expensive but they make good space heaters.
The space heater was warm but I still had two blankets, a knitted poncho, my hat, scarf and gloves and mittens. I must have been sitting on the floor hardly moving all day. Tonight I did a long workout.
Anyway I can’t wait for these morning night pages to be real writing. This is more like brushing your teeth kind of writing.
I was struck with a wonderful feeling of gratitude during the day that was real.
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