I am trying to start a real website I already paid for, from WordPress, only 4$ month. I had an art website on Otherpeoplespixels a few years ago but it’s 16$ month and a pain in the ass to do.
I’m staying in this site for now to do morning pages. If I make that a website to post a lot of art, then the blog can’t be very personal and I’ll need this blog for doing the morning pages. I’m really at a wall, bored with everything. I e been using Nike Training Club app for 3 years and all the new stuff is beginner and I’ve done all Kirsty Godso ‘s workouts and programs a million times. I actually asked her what to do in Instagram and she answered very quickly.
So I looked at some free apps but as soon as I start looking at their stuff it’s annoying and I go back to NTC. My other choice is I have “Insanity” workouts on my computer that I started way before the app or pandemic. I did a few and stopped as I wasn’t into working out back then.
The main thing I get from working out is I get depressed and bored and working out usually changes my mood. Like now I’m in a bad mood as I feel sick from binge watching Dead to Me on Netflix. There’s a reason they use the word binge. You feel bored and disgusted with yourself and don’t want to keep watching but nothing else is appealing either and I lost all my energy. I was going to read, clean, workout, cook, draw and I’m sitting on the couch doing nothing.
There’s nothing much to look forward to. Everything is the same. Work is the same. Being at home is the same with the same things to do besides hanging out with my 14 year old which is always interesting as everything is new and surprising or when it’s not hanging out with her is just great no matter what. But she’s busy and has her own busy social life. I don’t have a social life. Not much. Every Sunday I zoom or meet up with 2 friends I had coffee and did yoga Sundays before the pandemic.
There is cleaning and organizing to do. Our dishwasher is broken so there’s always dishes to wash. We were having a slightly regular home cleaner in the fall but the pandemic keeps getting in the way. I hate cleaning. I don’t have to do it all of course. The bathroom is my thing and I hate it.
My life is basically completely repetitive. I’m sick of my drawings and paintings. I have no sales or shows or anything about my artist career to look forward to. I’m sick of watching other fictional people have lives on Netflix when I’m supposed to be living my own life.
What the fuck is there to do. I can’t read for long. I’m bored with everything. Bored bored bored.
I was bored a lot when I was a kid, almost all the time except when I was with a friend. Otherwise I just read books. There was no tv or internet so there wasn’t much else to do except the summers that were fun as we always traveled.
Ok m going to Whole Foods to get stuff. There’s at least football playoffs to watch.
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